“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ”idea of them.””—Anaïs Nin (via yes-yesyall)
“If there’s just one piece of advice I could give you, it’s this- when there’s something you really want, fight for it, don’t give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you’ve lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you’re gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don’t come free.”—(via eletheowl)
Just know that we are never going to have any type of relationship. You ruined it the day your cheated on her. I’m never going to love you again, I don’t see how I can. After all the shit you’ve put me through. Brainwashing everyone into believing that I’m the bad/wrong one when it’s always been you. And getting him to be your sidekick is so sad, cause you just fucked up his life too by dragging him along.
FUCK YOU TWO. I WHOLEHEARTEDLY HATE YOU.
P.S. You’re never going to make me feel this way again. I’m way stronger now, you’ve pushed me passed my limit and I’m not gonna take any more of it!
Before I even write type this, I’m gonna be straight up and admit, yes I am typing this blog entry because I wouldn’t say this straight to your face. And don’t ask me if this blog is about you cause I’m NOT going to admit it to you. This is going to stay 100% confidential to myself about who this is about. You can say that I may be a cowered that I can’t say this to your face, and I’m not being “real” but oh well I could care less about what you think right now. Sorry Bout It.
Anyways where do I begin?.. Before all this happened, I thought I knew the real you. We were so close, and always had each others back, made each other feel better (not in a sexual way, ew) and were always happy. But now, it seems like you always wanna make me jealous, always think you’re right, and you wanna make me look bad, and to be quite frank, to me you became super.. fake.
Why do you have to rub it in my face that you have such a great relationship with them(I’m referring to a specific group of people) I know how close you guys are, and you should already know that I’m not trying to come in between the relationship you have with them. If anything I’m trying to build and strengthen my relationship with them too, but you always get in the way. But if from your point of view the reason you are rubbing it in my face is because your jealous, you shouldn’t be… Because you should already know that I honestly ENVY you, and what you have. It really sucks that you wont allow me to be a part of what you have just cause you’re only focused on someone else’s feelings. You don’t notice it but you basically throw me in the dirt and put that person on a shinning pedestal.. And I can’t do anything about it.
And I know you basically get everything you want, besides small material wants but you don’t have to show off to me everything that’s given to you, cause once again even thought you might not see it, you rub that in my face. You’re lucky that you got that, but unlike you I don’t have anything like that and things are rarely given to me, but I’m grateful that I understand that meaning of “hardworking”.. And I don’t know what you say but I hope the reason that person acts fake to me too isn’t because you’ve only said bad things about me, cause as the saying goes.. “The shit you hear about me might be true, but guess what? Could be as fake as the bitch who told you!”(And no, I’m not calling you a bitch I’m just stating the quote) Cause I always witness how that person acts TOTALLY DIFFERENT, but you know what either way I’m going to be the bigger man cause I know that person, sadly, never will be.
Ehh I’m getting over this, I’m just in a bad mood and really had to get things off my chest. I’m just saying that I’m sad about what’s happening to you. Sadly I can see why you lost a lot, and unfortunately for you, you don’t see the changes that are happening & probably wont take any advice for change. And just as an F.Y.I, I notice everything, I just don’t say shit. Annddd I know people are going to think “Oh this post is about me” blah blahh blahh but like I said earlier IDGAF, so think what you may but at least I know the truth. SORRY BOUT IT.
You get to a certain point in your life when that somebody who’s special to you has had previous experience with significant others prior to you. They might have gone out to places, done things, and shared moments together that you had no control over at the time.
One thing you need to realize for your own benefit is that anything before you is behind them, and there’s not a damn thing you can do to change any of it. The past is past for a reason, and it’s because of that past that you’re able to be with that amazing person here and now.
There’s a reason why some things in a person’s life are left behind. It’s what gives you the chance to determine what happens right now, in the present. So that maybe you can have some sort of say about what happens in the future.